Shall I learn how to recieve before I could give

唉我真的好不擅長買禮物，居然可以泡在誠品兩個小時，空手出來，繞著外面的公園走一圈之後，再回去誠品，殺了兩份價錢懸殊的禮物。

What the hell that I should care about whether my friends deserve those gift's values? Will they feel satisfied? Am I buying them gift or actually choosing mine (when all I have is my interest, my really bad taste, my point of view)? I really have no idea what are they longing for and eventually buying present becomes a duty than a heartful giving.

買個禮物也可以這麼偏執。